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Pride and Prejudice

heybaileykay — Mon, 26 Apr 2010 23:09:06 +0000

My newest obsession: Pride and Prejudice. I read the book and watched the movies (BBC miniseries and 2005 version) last summer, but my obsession has been revived thanks to my cousin’s lovely rendition of Mrs. Darcy for her piano recital.

I like the BBC version because it’s most similar to the novel; clocking in at 6 hours, though, means that I rarely watch it. I absolutely love the 2005 version starring Kiera Knightley and Matthew Macfadyen– although it’s not similar to the book, they beautifully convey the emotions of their characters. Plus, Matthew Macfadyen is adorable to drool over! (Not that I don’t love Colin Firth from the BBC version… especially when he’s swimming in the lake…)

Here are some amazing Pride and Prejudice fanvids:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GI1yNWp-958

This is a music video to the song “Forever and Always” by Taylor Swift. I loved this; the clips were arranged to tell the story of the song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8vb1h4CzvAQ&feature=related

This is by the same person who made the “Forever and Always” video; this time it’s “Kiss the Girl” by Ashley Tisdale. I love this song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x5de8AzKbR8

Set to “I’d Lie” by Taylor Swift. Lizzie knows everything about Mr. Darcy yet she doesn’t want to admit her true feelings for him. Precious! I have had this song stuck in my head for at least 2 days…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qEpnErCPMOg

Taylor Swift’s music video ”Love Story” is an allusion to Pride and Prejudice. So of course, it makes an amazing Pride and Prejudice fan vid!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sge5pUSJIRY

Trailer for “Pride and Prejudice” told with “Harry Potter” clips. I don’t even like Harry Potter yet this was hysterical! Hermoine is Elizabeth Bennet, Ron Weasley is Mr. Darcy, Harry Potter is Mr. Collins

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pB23y8E1ZdE

This video is set to the song “Rain” by Patty Griffin. It’s so beautiful, incorporating clips from the movie into the song. Taylor Swift loved this video so much that she favorited it. I loved it so much I downloaded the song… and I swayed along to the video, making myself look like a complete fool.

Two Relationship Theories

heybaileykay — Sun, 25 Apr 2010 19:52:55 +0000

After watching two of my favorite movies, The Notebook and Pride and Prejudice, this weekend with my sister and her boyfriend, I came up with two new relationship theories.

Theory 1: Are the best relationships the ones where the couple doesn’t even like each other at first?

Examples: In “Pride and Prejudice,” Lizzie thinks Mr. Darcy is stuck-up and can’t stand him. But eventually she falls in love with him. In “The Notebook,” Allie doesn’t even want to talk to Noah but she, too, falls in love by the end of the movie. In real life, my friend ended up dating and falling in love with someone that she hated at first; even though they broke up, she says it was the best relationship she’s ever been in. When my sister met the man that would later become her boyfriend, she didn’t really like him at first– she even thought he was annoying!! Fast forward a year, and they are now completely and perfectly and incandescently happy.

Another theory: Do guys experience love at first sight while the girls do not?

Examples: When one of my teachers first met the woman that would later become his wife, the first thing he said to her was “One day you and I will be married.” Of course, she thought he was strange at first. My sister’s boyfriend said that he’s going to marry her soon after he met her, while my sister didn’t even like him much (see example for previous theory.) In “The Notebook,” Noah is obviously smitten with Allie while she doesn’t even pay much attention to him. In “Pride and Prejudice,” Mr. Darcy admires Elizabeth from afar and even proposes to her while Lizzie doesn’t even like him.

These are the questions that I wonder about.

Poem

heybaileykay — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 15:12:49 +0000

The sunshine streams in the windows,
lighting up her face.
Despite the beautiful weather
she feels so sad.
So alone.

It’s days like today that she misses him;
wishes she could be with him.
Reading his handwritten letter,
tears stream down her face.
Bestest friends ever.
What a lie.
Maybe, just maybe…
you can come visit me.

And I was a fool to believe him,
she told herself.
I was so caught up in his smile;
Everytime he said my name.

As hard as she tries,
she can’t forget.
Everything is embedded in her memory.

Day turns to night.
Her footsteps are heard on the stairs
as she paces the house
until she tires.

She gently places her head
on her pillow before closing her eyes.
Sleeping is the only time she can forget.

True happiness

heybaileykay — Wed, 21 Apr 2010 02:01:24 +0000

This poem is inspired by my favorite novel. I won’t tell you which one, because I want you to figure it out for yourself.

She slowly walked toward him, hoping and wishing
that with every breath, he would tell her good news.
We need to talk– four words,
inspiring panic that shook her
to the core of her soul.
“What did I do? All I did
was fall head over heels for you, despite my initial
impression of you.”

He grasped her hand and held it tightly,
biting on his lip as he took a deep breath.
Before she could even process what was happening,
he bent down on one knee and recited her favorite
lines from her favorite novel.

I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot,
or the look, or the words, which laid the foundation.
It is too long ago. I was in the middle
before I knew that I had begun….
In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings
will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell
you how ardently I admire and love you…

Will you marry me?

At that moment, she knew true happiness.

Yearbook Photos

heybaileykay — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 16:33:37 +0000

I hate yearbook photos. It seems like every year I end up with an atrocious picture. Seriously.

Seniors once were able to get their yearbook photo taken by their own photographer. Not any more. Now it is required to get your photo through the school’s professional photographer. (Which I reluctantly did.)

This morning, I finally found the photographer’s website and looked at my photos. My friend, who had already visited the website, told me my picture was “cute.” She is a liar, liar, pants on fire!!! I look terrible. My face is fat as a blimp (and I have been trying to shed that “chubby cheek” appearance my entire life. It’s not cool when people tell you at family reunions that you had the cutest chubby cheeks.) I look like I have been sniffing glue or something. It really is an appauling photo.

The photos taken by my photographer, on the other hand, look gorgeous. I look like a supermodel or something. I don’t mean to toot my own horn, but I really do.

Why couldn’t the good photos of me be in the yearbook? Because my stupid school has a stupid deal with a stupid photographer who doesn’t even care if I look terrible in my photo.

Reason number 875 to homeschool your children: Their horrific photos will never be published in yearbooks.

Stupid iTunes

heybaileykay — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 00:43:35 +0000

No, iTunes, I will NOT pay $1.29 per song plus tax. You have got to be kidding me.

Why are all the good songs so expensive? I know you want to make money and everything but goodness stop being so greedy!

Half of these overpriced songs are old. As in, no one wants to pay $1.29 for them anymore.

Stop being cheap

The Reason for the Season

heybaileykay — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 05:02:58 +0000

Hello readers (if there are any!) First I’d like to apologize for not writing often, like I probably should.

Okay, so as you know today is Christmas Day. Well, the last hour of Christmas Day. Anyway, I was slightly disappointed in this year’s Christmas. Why? I’m not sure. Maybe because I didn’t get the puppy that Mom tricked me into thinking I was getting. Maybe it was because it’s my last year at home. Or maybe it’s because I didn’t get any presents that I absolutely loved. Who knows?

Out of nowhere, I suddenly remembered that Jesus is the reason for the season. Did God speak to me? I’m not sure. Maybe he just sent me a message.

I honestly don’t care anymore about my lack of amazing presents. I have the best present of all: Jesus.

P.S. My baby sister received the best present ever today– a promise ring from her boyfriend. No, she’s not engaged…yet.

Impress yourself

heybaileykay — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 22:53:30 +0000

Today I was all dressed up to head to school. A black turtleneck, dark denim jeans, a cute headband, and a Navy blue peacoat. I was stylin

I got quite a few compliments from people on my outfit (which totally made my day, might I add.) But I also received a few comments asking why I was dressed up and who I was impressing.

Why do people assume if I’m dressed up that I’ve dressed up to impress someone? I like dressing up because it makes me feel good about myself. The only person I have to impress is myself. Especially not impressing guys. If I want to wear sweatpants and a hoodie, then that’s just fine. If a guy can’t accept that, then he can forget about me. I don’t want a superficial guy.

Impress yourself, and the guys will fall in line

“She did not care because she did not love him”

heybaileykay — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 00:36:34 +0000

These two quotes, both from Gone With the Wind, have helped me through a very difficult time in my life recently. They keep me going and thinking. They remind me that if Scarlett O’Hara can survive the Civil War plus her broken heart, that I can certainly survive heartbreak.

“Yet, there the truth was. He did not love her and she did not care. She did not care because she did not love him.”

“He never really existed at all, except in my imagination,” she thought wearily. “I loved something I made up, something that’s dead… I made a pretty suit of clothes and fell in love with it. And when he came riding along, so handsome, so different, I put that suit on him and made him wear it whether it fitted him or not. And I wouldn’t see what he really was. I kept on loving the pretty clothes-and not him at all.

Seven things

heybaileykay — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 00:10:37 +0000

Faith tagged me so I’m making a list of seven random things.

1. I have been attempting to fix my sleep schedule by sleeping from 10 pm to 7 am during the week and from 10:30 pm to 8 am on the weekends. This effort will be wasted when I wake up at 3 am on Black Friday to go shop with the crazy people at Wal-Mart.

2. Yesterday I went to the Christmas parade. I haven’t been in quite a few years, but when my cousin invited me to go with him and his sons, my sisters and I jumped at the chance. We brought along a friend plus one of my sister’s boyfriends. It was a total blast. I still get really excited when the sirens that signal the start of the parade go off, and I was really excited to see Santa. It’s like I’m re-living my childhood or something.

3. Today I watched Top Gun when it was on CMT. I love that movie!! I always hold my breath at the beginning when they’re launching all the aircraft from the flight deck. I know practically every word, and I always sing along during Maverick’s serenade to Charlie.

4. After my mom told me she used to LOVE Top Gun, I realized I’m more like her than I thought. We’re both stubborn, love Top Gun, both have friends in the Navy. I can think of more similarities but not right now.

5. I should be writing in my journal to Faith. I have been so busy lately I barely have time to breathe, much less write!

6. I’m sick of high school drama. I was in a verbal argument on Friday. Everyone’s stress and drama is getting on my nerves. This stupid mock election is dividing the entire senior class. I’m ready to graduate…

7. …Yet I don’t want to grow up. I don’t want to go off to college and be swamped with homework. I don’t want to be 2 and a half hours from home. I want to live in my house, in my bed, with my sisters under the same roof with me. I hate changes and I know graduation is the ultimate change.